Alpha Loren

Chapter 217

The pills were those capsule ones with the two different colours. They were in an orange-tinted plastic

jar and the lid was white with a child lock. The warning label read 'highly addictive during prolonged

use' explaining why the jar could contain no more than about 20 pills. But I was more concerned about

my desperation to get Andrea and everything related to him out of my head.

Leo had put them on the highest shelf. I'd have to climb to reach them and right now, I could hardly

even stand. So all I did was stare at them for over half an hour. The silence in the room was

excruciating. My ears rang with the voices of Andrea and Luciano and Alessio and Julia and Chico and

so many more and with every blink, I saw his face. Sometimes he was grinning or laughing sometimes

he was glaring and growling. Whatever it was, it made my heart wretch and my fear spike.

I couldn't take it anymore.

I stood up, my head spun and my legs buckled but I was already half a metre closer to the pills.

Before I could reach for them, I felt myself fall and land straight back onto the bed as I let out a

frustrated sob. I couldn't carry my own weight and it was so infuriating. After crawling back under the

covers, I let myself cry until I had to tears left at which point I just lay silently.

Another half an hour later, my vacant staring was interrupted.

The door opened, a man marched in, slammed the door behind him and closed the blinds to the

window looking out into the hallway.

"I'm not supposed to be here," he said. "I climbed up a tree, along a ledge and through a window to get

in and I can't stay long but I just had to see you."

Luca.

I smiled, "I'm happy you did."

His lips curled into a smile too, "How are you?" he asked.

I sighed, "I've been better."

My eyes were probably puffy and my cheeks tear-stained. He was only asking out of good manners.

He sighed before he pushed forward a bunch of flowers in his hand. They were wilted and many of the

stalks bent or broken.

"They didn't really survive the journey," he said, with gritted teeth. "But I thought you might like them."

"They're perfect," I said taking them and looking down at the wilted petals and browning colours.

"Thank you."

"I was just gonna walk through reception and then up here to you but apparently there's strictly no

visitors except the Alpha," he replied.

"They say I'm too weak," I told him, drawing a circle with my finger on the sheet. "They're probably

right."

"Nonsense," he said. "You're Ella Jones and your body may not be at it's best but in there," he said

pointing to my head, "You're as wonderful as ever."

I forced a smile. "If only."

"Hey, Ella," he said crouching beside me. "What can I do?"

I shrugged, "Being alone is the worst sentence. Just stay here until Leo gets back at least."

"Of course," he said.

"And can you pass me those pills?" I asked pointing to the shelf. "I'm supposed to take them twice a

day but I'm too weak to reach them."

Luca got up and reached for the pot.

He read the label and I prayed he wouldn't question.

"Benzos?" he asked. "Aren't they like...really bad and addictive?"

"They're supposed to take my mind off....everything," I replied. "The Doctor prescribed them."

He nodded and handed them to me and I immediately took one, swallowing it down my dry throat. I

then smiled to Luca and put the pot beside my bed for next time.

Leo returned an hour later. As we listened to him come down the hallway, I suggested the Luca made

his quick escape but he refused.

"You're not supposed to be here," Leo said upon seeing Luca.

"I didn't want to be alone," I said.

"I'm sorry, Alpha."

"It's okay. I'm not mad. I'll tell reception that from now on you're allowed in," he replied before noticing

something in Luca's hair. "And then you won't have to do whatever you did to get in again," he added

pulling out a twig from his locks.

"How are you, Ella?" he asked.

I shrugged, "I don't know."

"You don't know?" he questioned.

His eyebrows furrowed for a moment as he paused and stared right at me. Then his gaze went up to

the shelf that the jar of pills had occupied but was now vacant. He then saw them by my bed and

sighed.

"I thought you decided not to take them, Ells?" he asked.

"I changed my mind. And I don't see him so often anymore."

I put on a smile and gestured for him to sit next to me. This content belongs to Nô/velDra/ma.Org .

"Do you feel numb like the bottle says?" he asked.

I shrugged, "I guess."

The chaotic memories of my trauma had been tamed. The despair and fear eased. It felt like I was in

control again but at the same time, there was little to be controlled.

"I think I want to sleep now," I stated.

Leo nodded and I lay down.

"Sleep well, Ella," Luca said, gently touching my hand.

Leo then kissed my head and I closed my eyes, dropping into some blissful sleep.