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Chapter 8 Miles
I move through the packhouse at a pace faster than I would like to at this time of the morning, but I would do anything right now to get away from my f**king father! He has not stopped wittering in my ear since the moment I stepped from my bedroom this morning. And he didn’t even give me the chance to pour myself a coffee before he told me we should come to the packhouse to continue with the training he needed to give me.
Yes. I want to get this transfer of power done with. The alteration of him being Alpha to me taking my rightful position as Alpha of the pack, but s hit, did he have to go on so f**king much?! I had done the necessary training away at Alpha training, so why my own Dad now needed to do his own training I did not know. But, he was adamant he would not hand this pack over to me until he felt I was ready. Personally, I think he just did not want to give up his power nor his control.
“Miles. We think you need to do a tour of the packs locally at least. Find your fated mate, or do more to do so.” My Dad’s voice echoed around my brain as we walked into the Alpha office.
I gave him a dark glare. “What?” This had never been mentioned before. Finding your fated mate was evidently something that
itself. Something that was happened when the right time came. A moment left up to fate
itself. Something that was out of our control… So, why would they be pressuring me to rush this? I obviously know who my mate is no, rephrase that… I know who my fated mate was. She isn’t mine anymore. And I could not be more f**king glad of that.
Yes, there is such a thing as a second chance mate, but that doesn’t happen for everyone, and it can take years… so, I know looking around for my mate would be nothing but a waste of time and effort. I am ready to be Alpha. I do not need some woman by my side to establish my place as leader of our pack. Once again, f**king Bailey West messing up my whole life. The world would have been a better place if her Dad had pulled out that night and let the sh it that created that waste of space trickle down his wife’s leg…
I looked at my Dad, and the determined expression on his face bothered me. Surely my parents are not going to pause on the Alpha ceremony until I have my mate by my side? That would be sheer lunacy, wouldn’t it? Who does that? Alphas rule on their own.
“Me and your Mum were thinking it would be wonderful for you to begin your reign as Alpha with your Luna by your side, son.” Dad says with a smile. “Like I did.”
I rolled my eyes in irritation. It was alright for him. His Luna was the pack’s main cheerleader. The beauty queen. One any man would want to show off by all accounts. Not that I think of my Mum in that way, but I have seen pictures of her back in her younger years and there is no denying she was beautiful. My Dad, Alpha or not, had been punching well above his weight! So, of course, he would be one to promote how wonderful fated love is. He got dealt a truly wonderful hand by fate…
Me, however… I got dealt the pack geek. Why the f**k would I want her?! Yeah, we had been close growing up, and she was my best friend’s little sister, but she was the biggest geek I knew, who spent more time with her head in a book than she did going out. It just was not normal. That is not what a guy wants for a woman! How can you show someone off who has her head in a f**king
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Balance:
These last few years, while she has been away studying, have been wonderful. I haven’t needed to see her face. Remind myself what I had done… because, like it or not, my wolf hated me for the fact I rejected our fated mate. She was the one the moon goddess selected for us. In my f**king wolf’s eyes, she was perfection. Did I feel guilty for hurting her? Hmm, maybe a little, when I thought back on the memories we shared… but that was usually after a few too many drinks….. otherwise, the thought of Bailey just
irritated me beyond belief!
She did nothing to make herself look appealing, and she wasn’t like the other she-wolves in the pack that worshiped the ground I walked on. She barely bothered with me and spoke to me like I was stu pid at times. I was going to be her next Alpha, she should have been treating me with respect. She should have seen me as important. The fact she was so pathetic and barely noticeable made it even more devastating when I learned who she was to me. Why of all the she- wolves in the pack would fate mate me to her? She was a nobody. I deserved better!
I contemplated numerous times getting her to stay away after her studies had been completed. She was smart. Though when you spend all your time with your head in a book and with very
few friends to dawdle away your time with, I should expect nothing less… And she passed her degree easily. Now a qualified teacher. She even begged to have permission from my Dad to apply for work away from our pack, but I told him we should make use of her here, and strangely, he agreed. I hadn’t missed Bailey, so why I quickly put a pause on her dreams of leaving the pack, I do not know… something stopped me letting her leave. A small part of me got a kick out of knowing I was ruining her hopes of escaping me and our pack. Destroying her dreams.
A girl like her didn’t deserve dreams. Didnt deserve a happy life. She had f**ked my life up by being my fated mate, so I planned to make her life miserable. Bullying her growing up had always been fun. Seeing her cry, though doing her hardest to hide her tears gave me a high 1 cannot explain. We
may be adults now, but I still enjoyed seeing her cry. She deserved to suffer. And if she was now to be the cause of more issues for me, then I would most definitely be making her suffer…
There was just a knowing feeling inside of me telling me to… I did not want her to think she had earned-herself freedom from us. Our pack. From me. No, she may no longer be my fated mate, but she would always be under my control…
“Miles, do not roll your eyes at me. A Luna is a vital part of the pack.” My father interrupts my wandering mind. Why the hell was I allowing the thoughts of Bailey to take over?! Please check at N/ôvel(D)rama.Org.
“Dad, I do not think there is any rush to find her. We visited packs not too long ago, and I found no mate. We know that. She will come when fate decides. Perhaps, I am one of the Alphas that is meant to have his pack prepared and built for his mate.” I suggest, lying through my teeth, because I know full well, that my mate is not coming. There is no fated mate out there waiting for
me.
No. For she found me on the day my wolf came for me. And I was truly disgusted with the choices made for me by our moon goddess. So much so, that I turned my back upon her, and 1 never intended to allow her back in either…