Despicable Roommate

Lynn’s POV

I didn’t like leading boys on and disappointing them later. I thought it was better if I ended whatever it was at the start before it was too late. When you don’t see a future with someone, better tell them before they’ve fallen to hard making it hard for them to let you go.

As time goes by and they get more attached to you, it becomes harder to let them go, especially if you have a conscience. I had one, and if I let things go on, I would find it hard to pull away.

I had to let someone go. I didn’t have any wish to go on. First of all I didn’t understand what was going on between us, things weren’t clear. I couldn’t say it was a relationship because we had never talked about that and we never referred to each other as boyfriend/ girlfriend. And we weren’t friends for benefits because we had never slept with each other and I not want to be anyone’s friend for benefits. That wasn’t something I could agree to even if there was only one man left in the universe.

I didn’t want to lose Alec as a friend but then again how would friendship work if he had feelings for me. Maybe I could create some distance between us and when he stopped feeling that way, we would resume our friendship. We all need friends. Considering that I didn’t need my roommate as an enemy, I had to try whatever possible for us to remain friends. I had seen what Alec was capable of doing when annoyed and I didn’t want to be on the receiving end of that kind of treatment.

I had to sort out things. I had not replied to his texts for long and neither had I picked up his calls.

You must be wondering who am talking about if you haven’t understood. It’s Ross.

I didn’t yet understand my feelings for Alec but I thought I liked him but I wasn’t sure if he felt a thing for me. We had kissed twice but who can understand a player. He could have done just for fun but I hoped not. He was not the kind of guy I’d want to commit to. A guy who could play around with my heart.

All I wanted a boy I could trust. Someone who could make me the happiest girl in the world, a person whose shoulder I could lean on when things got tough. Someone romantic and really caring not an annoying person like Alec. Why was I falling for him? There were tons of better lads I knew and liked me. Why him? Love is something very hard to understand. We fall for those who don’t like us and leave those who want us.

I reached out for my phone to text Ross.

Hey Ross!

It would be good if he replied and I wasn’t sure if he was going to. Wouldn’t blame him, I hadn’t replied his for quite a long time.

“Hey honey, what’s up. You haven’t talked to me for a long time. What’s going on?”

Not what I expected.

“It’s about what’s going on between us. I don’t understand what it is. Was suggesting that we could go back to the time we were just good friends. We can’t go on like this.”

I waited for a quite a long time. It seemed he wasn’t going to reply which was fine as long as he understood the message. I felt relieved after letting out something that had been haunting me for a long time.

Till I heard a knock and the door opened right after the knock. Ross was at the door.

“H-hi,” I stuttered. I hadn’t expected him to come.

“Hey Lynn,” He walked in with an unreadable face expression. “What were you talking about?”

“You read my message, didn’t you?” I didn’t want to talk to him. Sometimes, people don’t understand how bad we feel after dumping them.

“So, you’re dumping me?”Text property © Nôvel(D)ra/ma.Org.

“You don’t have to take it like that,” I defended myself. “I’m just doing what’s best for you. Best for both of us actually.”

“Best for me? Did I hear you right? Losing the girl I love is best for me? Are you fucking serious?” He was yelling.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you if I did,” I yelled back. “I just realized I don’t feel the same way as you do.”

“So what? You’ve been leading me on, all along?”

“That’s why we should stop.”

“Well, I know you loved me but I think it’s been channeled to another direction. That’s it, right?”

“No, that’s not true”, I lied, “I don’t love anyone and I don’t think am capable of love.”

“Don’t try to act smart with me,” He looked furious, “You like Alec, don’t you?”

“No, I hate him. He’s not a nice person and you know that too.”

“You love him, I can see it in your eyes.” He accused, “I guess you’ve been sleeping around with him because you’re now a slut.”

“What did you just call me?”

The door opened, but Ross seemed not to notice.

“A slut because that’s what you are.” He turned to leave and he didn’t reach the door before falling to the floor.

Alec had knocked him down. I managed a small smile and mouthed a thank you to Alec.

“No need to thank me,” He smirked. “I will always defend you.”

I thought he didn’t mean that but it filled me with happiness, knowing that he was such a sweet guy. Ross got up and faced Alec. He was a few inches shorter but didn’t seem intimidated.

“What is wrong with you, dude?”

Alec held him by his shirt.

“Learn how to treat girls,” Alec told him. They glared at each other. “No girl is supposed to be treated like trash and called stupid names. Now get out of my room before I kill you.”

Ross just shook his head and walked out. I couldn’t help but feel some admiration for Alec.

I was surely lucky to have such a roommate.