Chapter 27
His decision was to marry Becky and suffer the consequences of not living with the person he loved most for the rest of his life.
There wasn’t any doubt in his heart which of the ladies he loved more: it was Susan. He had fallen in love with her all over again. She was his first love; her love never died in his heart. It was a lingering misunderstanding between her and his mom that made Susan divorce him four years into their marriage, when she couldn’t take it anymore.
After the divorce, they had nothing to do with each other again except to talk about their son, Tyler, for years until she came knocking on his door one evening when he was already preparing to get married to Becky. He just returned from work that evening and was coming out of the shower when his doorbell rang. Felix wasn’t expecting anyone. He quickly dried his body and put on his knickers to check who was at the door.
“Who is it?” He called out,” before opening up.
“It’s me, Susan,” she had replied from the other side of the door.
“Susan? Is everything okay?” He opened the door, and she was standing right there, eyes swollen, looking so sad. He had never seen her look so bad like that before.
“Come in,” he said, and she walked inside.
“What is wrong?” He asked again and made her sit down.
“It’s Bruce,” she said to him. Bruce was her boyfriend of over five years.
“Bruce?” He went to sit on the arm of the couch she was sitting on. “What did he do?”
“He…he said he can’t marry me.” She took a deep breath and let it out. “He doesn’t want to replace his late wife’s memory with another woman.”
“Are you serious?” Colin raised a brow, “but you people have been together for a long time. Did he tell you this from the beginning, or are you just hearing it from him?”Belonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.
“He said that when we started out five years ago. It was just two years after he lost his wife.” She looked into Felix’s face. “I…I thought he would eventually change his mind with time.”
“So he doesn’t want to marry again?” He asked.
“No,” she replied. “I asked him again about marriage this evening and he gave me the same reply he’s been giving me for the past five years. I want to have more kids, and I don’t want to have them outside wedlock.”
She blurted off the tears forming in her eyes with the back of her hand. “I…I broke up with him,” she sighed.
Seeing how distraught she was, Felix couldn’t help himself. He moved and sat with her on the three-seater couch. “I’m so sorry,” he patted her back. “I thought both of you will get married one day. You always look good together.”
“He still loves his late wife so much,” she said. “He didn’t want any other woman to take up her space in his heart.”
She dissolved into tears. Her sobs made the rest of her words incoherent.
“It’s okay,” he squeezed her hand. “It’s his loss. You will find another man who will love you the way you deserve.”
She continued to cry. He just held her hand for the longest time until she stopped crying.
Colin’s heart was beating so furiously as he held her hand. His control was slipping off by the second. He was so surprised he had to stand up and move away from her at one point.
This was the woman he first loved in his life. The woman he had promised forever. He paced his sitting room, longing to pull her back into his arms.
Suddenly, he felt his control snap off, and he went back to sit beside her.
“Come here,” he breathed raggedly and pulled her onto his legs. His voice was throaty. “I want to kiss you.” He rearranged her, so that she was now straddling him. It was as if he was being controlled by a power higher than him.
He cupped the back of her head and brought his lips to hers. The whole of his body electrified as their lips touched. All the breath left his body. He growled and gave her a wild kiss, which left both of them breathing hard when it ended.
“I still love you Felix,” Susan cupped his cheeks. “I belong to you.”
“You still do?” Her confession knocked the air off him. He never had the tiniest idea.
She nodded. Her eyes were tearing up again.
With that, she kissed him. He deepened the kiss and before he knew it; they were undressing each other.
They made love on the couch. It was incredible. It was one of the most intense and amazing sex he’s ever had. They couldn’t utter a word to each other after the sex. They only exchanged bewildered looks, unsure of how to react to what had just happened.
She stood up and got quickly dressed. He reached out and squeezed her hand.
She sighed and pulled her hand away gently and left.
Colin didn’t call Becky that night and for the first time since he started seeing her. He couldn’t eat either. He had to trash the dinner he barely touched when he was about to retire for the day. Sleep eluded him, too.
Colin woke up with a start about two hours after he finally fell into slumber out of exhaustion. Then he realized it was his ringing phone that woke him up. He reached over and picked it off his bedside table.
All the muscles in his body tensed as he saw Becky’s number on the screen. He sat up with a force on the bed, watching as the phone rang out.
Guilt washed over him all over again, knowing his relationship with Becky would never be the same. His phone rang again. He knew he had to take the call, and he did.
He had to lie that he didn’t call her because he returned home very late and didn’t want to disturb her.
His focus in the office was affected as well. All he was thinking about was Susan. He went to her house after work. They had sex again that day, and he even stayed over, but he had to leave very early in the morning because of Tyler. That was how their secret affair started.