Falling For The Man I Married

Chapter 68: His greatest loss

Gabriel's POV:

I ran towards the front door as soon as I got out of my car. I can't contain the happiness inside me and I'm so excited to see my wife. I want to confess to her what I really feel, and share this good news at the same time.

"Love..."

I called her the moment I walked in the front door, but the faces of our maids who have tears in their eyes were the first thing that came into my view. I ignored them as I called Madi's name. And since all of them were silent, my voice echoed throughout the living room.

"Have you seen my wife?" I asked them and they all shared a look. I didn't wait for them to answer as I ran my way upstairs and knocked on her bedroom door.

"Madi.."

I knocked for the third time, but I got no answer from her inside. I tried to opened the doorknob and pushed the door only to find her room 'empty'. I checked the bathroom but she's not inside.

The strange feeling began to kick inside me as I walked over to her closet while still calling her name. But I was stopped in my tracks when I found it almost empty. The clothes I bought for her remained on its hanger, but all the clothes she brought here the first time were all gone. I opened the drawers to see they were also empty, the only thing I found inside was the black credit card I gave her.

A cold sweat washed over me and my heart began thumping violently, almost painfully inside my chest. I went back into the room and my eyes landed on the long white folder on top of her makeup stand.

I picked up the folder and suddenly I felt the world stopped and spun around me.

Divorce papers.

Her name was printed at the end of the sheet with her signature on it. I gulped as I found myself sitting on the edge of the bed.

Emptiness. I felt empty, so fucking empty inside. I tried to think back on everything that happened in the last few days and it hit me. Her songs.. her tears.. they were all signs that she's leaving me, and I'm fucking fool not to recognize them all.

I brushed my hair up through my fingers as I closed my eyes. I wanted to shout, I wanted to punch something and I wanted to cry. I didn't notice that I dropped the folder on the floor. And when I stand, I saw another white stationery together with the divorce papers scattered between my feet. My hands started to shake I recognized it was a letter from her.

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Gabriel Wilsons; Material © of NôvelDrama.Org.

I don't really know how to start this letter, but I hope you'll read it to the last word.

Sir, Mr. Wilsons.. first of all, I want to thank you for hiring me as your personal assistant at the WEC. It has been a real challenge for me every day to bring you your coffee, especially when you are in a bad and grumpy old. I learned a lot from you, Sir.

Gabriel... thank you for giving me the offer and agreement to be your wife. I know we're just a fake couple, but I admit.. those days with you were the happiest and memorable moments that have happened in my life. Thank you for giving me 'some firsts' in my life, especially for stealing my first kiss.

A chuckle escaped from my lips. -'So, I was her first kiss.'-

To my friend Gab..thank you for sharing some of your deepest secrets in life with me and for listening to some of my weird stories. Thank you, Gab, for being my friend even just in a short period of time.

And lastly to my husband for three months... thank you 'love' and I'm sorry, if I may not be able to keep my promise not to leave you and to support you until the end of your plans. Because as I promised you from the very beginning, I will only help you get 'HER' back into your life, but not for your plan of revenge against her. If you still love her, pursue whatever you guys had before, especially now that you're going to be a father again. Marry her, be her husband and a father for your second baby.

But if you don't love her anymore, moved on Gab. Let her go, let your heart be free from pain, hurt, and disappointments of your past. Because the sooner you let them go, the sooner your traumas will heal, and you will find the real meaning of happiness in your life. Don't make your life miserable just because you lost your first dream. And just because the past didn't turn out the way you wanted, it doesn't mean your future can't be better than you ever imagined. There were a lot of opportunities that will come into your life if you just let your door open for every possibility.

And by the way, this letter doesn't mean goodbye, but it's a new beginning for both of us. I've already asked my lawyer for a copy of our divorce paper. I've already signed my name and signature there and all you have to do is to sign and file it. Challenge accepted, and challenge fulfilled for Madi. You will always be a special part of me and I hope that when we meet again in the future, you are the new Gabriel Wilsons with new hope and a new smile of happiness on your face.

Your employee, your friend, and your 'fake wife', Madi

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A tear of sadness rolled down my face, then it was followed by another one and it became a whimper. She's gone. She left me. I fall back into the bed with her letter in my hand and tears in my eyes. I

looked up at the ceiling as I felt the sudden feeling of being alone in my entire life. Her scent still lingered in her room, in the bedsheet, and on her pillow.

Now I understand the real meaning of emptiness and loneliness in one. I have never felt like this before not even when Stacey left me and chose Ray over me. I made a mistake once, and I did it again. I lost her, I lost my wife without even telling my feelings for her. I'm such a fool.

"No! It can't be! She can't leave me without explaining all this to me!"

I said getting up from the bed. Wiping my tears I took my phone out of my pocket and dialed her number. I ran out the door and went back to the living room where the maids were still standing in where I had seen them earlier. Madi's number is already unattended but I tried to dial it again.

"Any of you! Have you seen my wife this morning?"

I asked them in no particular but they didn't answer my question, they just shared a look again.

"I asked you a fucking question! Answer me! Did any of you see my wife this morning?"

They all gasped when I started to shout. I don't have time for their dramas, I need to see my wife. I need to find her and my time is running out.

"Sir..."

Elsa walked over to me and gave me something that made my mouth and heart dropped to the floor. Madi's ring. Her wedding ring. I looked blankly at it. I don't even know how to accept it.

"She wanted me to give you this back, Sir. She said it doesn't belong to her and she has no right to wear it."

I stared at Elsa's face and seconds later, I just found myself laughing bitterly. I closed my eyes as I frustratedly brushed my hair up with my fingers.

"Fuck!"

I yelled and punched the nearest wall that came into my sight. I can't take it. I can't take the pain. It tears me inside. Why now? Why does it have to happen right now when I know I'm ready to give my heart again? When I'm ready to forget my past?

"She's crying when she pulled her bag out the door."

I heard Elsa's voice from behind and I turned around to see her in tears.

"Sir, I think she loves you. She said she just wanted to forget the pain inside this house."

"Fuck!"

I knew it! She felt the same way for me. But I was such a fucking fool not to tell her my feelings. I was such a dumb bastard that I didn't appreciate her efforts. I was a jerk not to recognize that I love her for so long. And now she's gone and I don't know how to find her again this time.