From Hell To Heaven

Chapter 32: 32

Akash POV

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I went to my angel's cabin. I opened the door to see my angel crying.

"Angel!" I called her, and she raised her head to look at me with her teary eyes. I walked close to her

and held her hand and took her to my office personal bedroom. Then I sat on the bed and made her sit

on my lap.

"You have a bedroom in your office also?" she asked trying to change the topic.

"Yes, I have a bedroom in our office also, but it's not important now" I told her firmly.

"Angel tell me one thing, is Sanaya and her words more important to you?" I asked her.

"No"she said softly.

"Then what your problem? Why are you crying? I know you will never let me down. Yesterday you were

so confident about yourself and what happened to you today? Why do you let Sanaya's words enter in

your brain? Tell me angel" I asked her.

"Because I lost my confidence Akash. I can't participate in the fashion show. I don't want to humiliate

you" she said while crying. Her words made me angry.

"Listen Angel, don't wait until everything is just right. It will never be perfect. There will always be

challenges, obstacles and even worse conditions. So what? Get started now. With each step you take, Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org

you will grow stronger and stronger, more and more skilled, more and more self-confident, and more

and more successful. Remember this angel, I'm also here for you" I said placing a kiss on her

forehead.

"You know what? Even I faced a lot of humiliations. I have even struggled with confidence in one of the

most important aspects of my life: playing guitar. I felt completely confident in my work, but with guitar,

it is a different story. Lately, I have been displeased and uncomfortable with my performance, instead of

the ease that I used to play with. After every mistake, I would get down on myself and not shake it off,

like one should. It has been hard for me to find out how to gain and reach confidence. I finally believed

that I am a good player, and that I cannot let a pressure get to me. I am slowly building my confidence

by believing in myself and trusting in my abilities," I said to her. She listened to me very carefully.

"Trust yourself. You know more than you think you do, if anyone ever says that you're no good. They're

no better. Always remember you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter

than you think. No one can make you feel inferior without your consent." I said looking into her eyes.

"Now say angel, can you do it or not? Are you going to participate or not? Are you going to put

boundaries around yourself?" I asked her.

"Akash, I promise you. I'm never gonna put boundaries on myself ever again.

I'm never gonna say 'I can't do it'.

I'm never gonna say 'maybe'.

I'm never gonna say, 'I don't think I can.'

I can and I will. Yes, I will participate in the fashion show, and I will show Sanaya, who is Dharani

Mehra" my angel said confidently bringing a smile to my lips.

"Good and never say you are going to kill yourself even for fun. Understand? Then, you will face your

punishment for it" I told her sternly.

"Punishment?? Then I will tell that. I will kill myself, what will you do?" She asked me with raised

eyebrows.

I really can't believe. I'm hearing her say this. I kind of felt hurt and disappointed by the way she told

she would kill herself. I know she told me for fun, but I seriously don't like it.

"You know what, just leave it. I don't want to talk to you" I told her angrily, and before I tried to get up to

leave she called me.

"Akash wait!" she suddenly pulled me as she tucked my shirt and instantly drew me back making me

fall right on top of her.

" I...I'm sorry if I might have hurt your feelings with what I said...I didn't mean to hurt... I just said that

playfully for teasing you. Please forgive me. Please don't angry with me" she said and pouting her lips.

There...my heartbeat was beating faster again and my eyes just exploring her pouting lips.

Damn!! You woman don't pout like that!!

"Please say something Akash! Am I forgiven?" she asked me hopefully.

"So you want my forgiveness?" I asked her, and she nodded her head in 'Yes'.

"Ok! Kiss me and I'll forgive you" I told her. I couldn't help but stare into her wide surprised big doe eyes

and her cheek turning into tomato red.

"What?? No! I am not going to kiss you" she turned her head and closed her mouth with her palms.

"Ok then! I will not forgive you" I said and tried to get up once more, but she held my collar.

"Wait! Wait! Ok, I will give you a kiss, but one condition. You'll have to close your eyes" she said shyly.

"Seriously angel? We have kissed so many times, and now you want me to close my eyes" I asked her

with irritation.

"Please Akash!" she said.

I muttered "stubborn angel!!"

"All right, I will close my eyes" I told her. Anyways she is going to kiss me. That's what is going to

matter now. I shut my eyes, and I waited for her lips to touch mine. And finally her lips touched but not

on my lips, it's touching my forehead. I opened my eyes and glared at her. She is struggling not to

laugh at me.

"This is called kiss in your language?" I asked her.

"Yep! This is also called kiss in my language!" she said teasingly.

"Oh angel! Now I will teach you kissing in my language" I said and without giving her time I brought my

lips crashing down on hers as I placed my hands at her waist and brought her close to me not even

letting air pass between us.

I slipped my tongue inside her mouth, and she moaned. That drove me more crazy and with our

mouths connected, I was above her, supported by my elbows so that she would not get crushed by my

weight. She brought her hands around my neck and pulled me close to her. I happily compiled. She

also started moving her tongue, both our tongues fighting for dominance. I was enjoying the sensations

it sends to my whole body. However, when I could not control further, She moaned in my mouth, and

that urged my blood to travel to my southern region.

My hands automatically went to lift her top up. I raised it till her upper stomach without breaking the

kiss. I grazed at my palm softly on her soft stomach and pinch her lightly. She shivered in my arms and

moaned out loud. I kissed her more hungrily and slowly moved my hand to her upper part and tried to

cup her breast.

But my angel held my hand and stopped me. We broke our kiss to get some oxygen, but our eyes were

locked with each other. It was so hot, and the atmosphere was filled with sexual tension. The sound of

our breathing, in and out, could be heard clearly, other than that, it was completely silent. The way her

chest rose up and down with her breathing, it was so hot and sexy.

And suddenly a lone tear slipped from her eyes. Then realization hit my face, and abruptly I stood up

and cursed myself.

'Shit, shit! What have I done?'

'How can I lose my control like this?'

'I hurt my angel one more time.'

I turned to my angel and saw her straightening her dress. Tears were flowing down her eyes.

I can't look into her eyes now.

"I'm sorry angel! I got carried away, sorry," I said without seeing her face and hurriedly left the personal

bedroom.

Dharani POV

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"I'm sorry angel, I got carried away, sorry" Akash said without even looking at my face and hurriedly left

the personal bedroom.

I sat there like a statue. I want to cry so badly. How can I give in so easily in the heat of the moment?

'What is wrong with Me?' I asked myself.

'You are in love with your husband '; my mind voice graced her presence now.

'Are you crazy? I don't want your idiotic advice! Get lost now!' I yelled at my mind voice.

'Call me a stupid, crazy, idiot but that will not change the fact that you have fallen

your husband.'my mind said.

I love Akash?

'No...No I am not in love with Akash and please don't confuse me' I yelled at my mind voice.

'You don't know when, how and why but somehow... Akash has managed to himself enter

your heart.' My mind voice said.

'I can't easily fall on the man who tortured me in the past' I defended.

'But you did Dharani, tell me honestly why will you let him kiss you and go to a further level?' My mind

voice asked.

'Because today he stood by my side and was even ready to kill Sanaya for me. He gave me so much

confidence and encourages. That's the reason I let him kiss me' I defended myself.

'Oh so you are saying if somebody else would have been in Akash's place and helped, and you will let

that person kiss you like Akash did? Listen carefully dharani! You love Akash. Now tell me if

not Akash does you allow someone to be close to you like this?' My mind asked me.

'Shut up! Just shut up! What nonsense are you talking? He is my husband. He has the right. That's the

reason I let him touch me, and I don't love him, understand?' I yelled and defended myself, but I have

strong feeling that whatever my mind voice said was true.

'Akash is slowly winning my heart little by little, but I don't want to admit it now' I thought to myself.

'Your wish, ok don't admit it now. I hope you will realize your love soon because your husband is smart

and clever. If you make him wait so long, Sanaya will take him. So be careful, bye' my mind voice told

and left me in my thoughts.

It's true that I never let any man touch me like this before.

Is it true? I'm in love with Akash?

oh god help me!!

If somebody has an answer, please tell me!

Am in love with Akash or not?

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How is it ?