I Am The Luna

ZAIA.

A week has passed, and I feel… empty.

The moment Atticus mentioned it, there were so many emotions that I was left to

deal with.

Anger, betrayal, regret, pain, guilt and sadness.

My emotions became an ocean I was drowning in, struggling to stay afloat… but I let go, allowing the emotions to consume me… until I no longer felt anything.

When your emotions are no longer blinding you, things become clearer. Just as I now paid attention to what Sebastian had said before he left. That he had something to do. If I paid enough attention, I would have realised before I overrode security. He had already locked himself out of the pack.

He had warned us too about the rogues, just as Atticus had mentioned.

The cryptic remarks, the way he looked at me, the fear that something would happen it was all valid.

And then, our little Sia, I should have realised he’d do anything for her. I just wish he told me so I would understand. Did breaking my heart help him?

But I can’t be selfish. My feelings are not important in comparison to our daughter’s health. I would do anything for her and if he succeeds in getting that cure, I will be

forever in his debt.

that we are.

Sebastian’s and my trust have never been perfect and I realise not compatible. Our relationship just isn’t at that level where we could not live without

one another.

Perhaps I was too stupid, but to Sebastian, this was just a relationship, not his world. I thought this time around I wasn’t so clingy, but I clearly don’t love right.

Where do I lack?

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia…. that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made.

I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always

despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive…

“Dad… come,” I say gently, holding my hand out to him.

remain,

He looks at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that he looks aged.

I need you, Dad..

I can’t lose him.

“Do you think burying her here was ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard

of The Dark Hollow Falls Pack.

“She lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the

children here… she wanted that “I say quietly.

Not telling him that Mom once told me, she wished to be buried away from The

Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in a pack where her mate’s

mistress is Luna.

I’m not sure what stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order of hers from long

ago.

That is a question I’ll always ask myself, but never voice.

For our children, I hope he makes it and that he accomplishes what I have never been able to do. Heal Sia… that thought brings me hope.

Even the moon cannot heal things that are man made. ConTEent bel0ngs to Nôv(e)lD/rama(.)Org .

I glance up as a sharp wind blows and observe Dad, who now turns away from

Mom’s grave.

Mom’s funeral was held a few days ago and seeing Dad’s state, the way he’s hiding what he’s truly feeling breaks me a little more.

He was cheated on by Mom… but he still loved her, just as Sebastian has hurt me, yet I can’t help but love him. But that doesn’t mean I can’t forgive him, it just means I will never be able to accept him back into my life.

But I can relate to Dad in a way. The pain our mates caused us would always remain, despite the love we feel too.

If we make it out of this alive….

“Dad… come,” I say gently, holding my hand out to him.

He looks at me and once again I’m hit with the painful reminder that he looks aged.

I need you, Dad…

I can’t lose him.

“Do you think burying her here was ideal?” he asks, glancing around the graveyard of The Dark Hollow Falls Pack.

“She lived here for some years. I think she’ll be fine… besides, she’s closest to the children here… she wanted that.” I say quietly.

Not telling him that Mom once told me, she wished to be buried away from The Crystal Shadow Pack. That she refuses to be buried in a pack where her mate’s

mistress is Luna..

I’m not sure what stood any longer, but I couldn’t ignore that order of hers from long.

ago.

Dad nods. “Well, what next?”

I look around, but don’t reply. There is still a way that the Sable are listening in on our conversations. We have been intercepted twice on trips and I’ve grown tired of watching my back.

But it’s not all a disappointment. Atticus has found something, and I am going to meet him later since neither of us trusted discussing it over the phone.

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