Moan, Ava! R-18

{Nadaline Felt Betrayed}

Nadaline POV/Nadaline Residence.

First I was nervous about how Ava would react to my sudden disappearance and it was not my fault for leaving like that. Had to stop buying some clothes and jewellery and other things. I know she’s probably sleeping or on her phone as usual. I Drove to the garage and went in.

A smile plastered on my face after seeing her make breakfast, just a small portion left, u thought and carried the bags, heading upstairs when I heard her voice. But I pause and realize she’s with someone but not Gold since that’s what I thought at first.

“Oh! Janice came over. Wait, Janice came over, what’s she doing here when I didn’t call her over? ” I thought and walked closer to her room entrance since the door was open. My ear picked their words and felt it was a personal issue, but I started wondering why she can’t have such a conversation with me.Còntens bel0ngs to Nô(v)elDr/a/ma.Org

After thoughts of thoughts, I felt they should be free to talk to each other. Moreover, Janice isn’t the bad influence type. I straightened myself up a bit to go when Ava’s words left me cold to the air.

“Yeah. Losing my virginity wasn’t what I planned so soon, that alone, I can’t withstand having another sex with Dalton. ”

It felt as if my red blood cells turned black, as much as I want to say I didn’t hear that well, I couldn’t, not for a second. I couldn’t feel my legs, nor could I feel if I was breathing again.

“Sex with who? ” I find myself asking again because this conversation can’t be real. Those words can’t be real. I keep telling myself within.

“Ma’am. ” They stuttered, the flash of fear on their face made my heart shatter into a thousand pieces.

“When did this happen? ” I find myself asking, I’m just trying to act cool, not break down in front of them.

“I swear, it’s not what you think. It was Dalton that rape me-”

“Rape? ” I was confused because I find myself wondering why he raped her. Not as if he’s not satisfied with what we both do together.

“I swear. ” Ava stuttered as tears came rushing down her cheeks. Janice was just behind, looking helpless at the situation.

“When did this raping of things happen? ” I asked, seriously fighting back my tears but then I had to find out how everything happened.

“I swear, I was pleading for him to stop but he took my virginity with force. Remember when I was begging to get a CCTV camera but you declined my request? You said you never lost something- ”

“You should have explained better Ava! ” I yelled, letting down my tears. I am trying to stay strong but I can’t. I can’t explain what made me cry, all I know is that I am in pain, and my chest suddenly becomes heavy.

“Fact that Ava gave me green lights but I couldn’t see it. I couldn’t understand it. Or should I say, the person I claim to be in love with, the person that claims he loves me forcefully took my adopted daughter’s innocence, right under my nose, my roof and I did not know, no wonder he wants Ava to spend a week with him without me being there? Now I understand why he wants to spend time with her.

“Oh, My God!!! ” I didn’t realize I said that loudly. Letting the shopping bags off my hands to the ground. I fell to my knees that instant.

“I was scared to tell you, I thought I would ruin things between you two. I don’t want to be the reason for whatever issues that might arise between the two of you-”

“And now, things are ruined already. Not only things but you got lost. You should have opened up to me. Have never for once scolded you, or stop you from not doing what you want. ” I said with a sobbing voice.

“I was confused about what to do, no friends to share things with. Gold isn’t helping, moreover, you both are in love with each other. I was in the middle of what to do and what I shouldn’t, I was confused because I don’t know if you fully trust me enough to say something like that about him. It’s hard to say something like that about one’s partner without the other one not doubting or getting offended. I WAS JUST FRUSTRATED. I know how hard it was for you to trust me, I was trying my best to avoid anything that will make you doubt the trust you have for me. ” She uttered, sniffling back her running nose. All through her explanation, she kept bursting into tears as she uttered those words.

Janice’s knee beside me, also in tears, never felt so heartbroken to this extent, that moment, I start questioning why I have to feel miserable at finding true love. First, the marriage didn’t work, I got divorced, and now I got cheated on but not with one random bitch but my daughter.

“I failed as a mother. I failed as an adopted mom. ” I stuttered, running my hand through my hair. Goosebumps rose on my skin as I felt, nothing left to use and express how I am feeling.

“Ohh. ” I screamed in agony. Only God knows if I am still in my right senses because, I don’t think, I don’t think at all.

I felt ashamed to look at Ava, I felt I didn’t deserve to have her around. Miserable was what I was feeling, nothing apart from that. Slowly withdraw me from their arms, leaving them curious about my sudden move.

“I got you some things when I was coming back from a trip. ” I uttered, avoiding her stares as I returned my stares to the bags.

(Stuttering) “I can’t believe you are avoiding my stares. Now I look disgusted and bitchy to you. ” She stuttered, as another round of tears came streaming down her cheeks.

“I’m not Ava! ” I yelled, with the only strength in me. Suddenly, I felt the whole room spinning, and a strong headache hit me. Didn’t know what happened afterwards, but I found myself getting deeper into that cold darkness filled with a void.

“This is how it feels when darkness comes. ” I mumbled as my eyelids closed to welcome the cold darkness filled with nothing but void.

TBC.