Chapter 902 Being Yourself
Chapter 902 Being Yourself
Although he felt a little regretful and sorry for his mother, he was relieved to change his character.
In the past, Julien was praised by everyone. His mother was proud of him, but he was under a lot of pressure.
No one knew that he didn't like that.
There were many times he could feel that his mother was seeing someone else in him.
"As I expected." Sydney heard him out and sighed.
Julien vaguely felt that something was off. He lifted her chin and made her face him. "What do you mean? You brought up my former character all of a sudden. Is there any problem?"
His nerves were so keen.
Sydney's lips parted. After quite some time, she bit them and hummed. "Actually, Dallin reminded me of the former you the moment I saw him today."
"What?" Julien wrinkled his eyebrows.
Sydney took a breath and explained, "I seemed to see the former you in him. That gentle boy in white clothes. Guess what? The feelings you two give me are the same. You're identical. I'm not talking about appearance, but character and temperament. Of course, I mean the former you. Now you're widely different from him. You were like him in the past. You were like one person. Do you see what I mean?"
She looked at him. She had made it clear enough.
His character used to be identical to Dallin's.
To put it bluntly, someone deliberately trained him to act like Dallin.
And the trainer was his mother.
She had asked him about it just now.
Then she told him that his former character was the same as Dallin's. The message was clear.
Not a fool, Julien understood what Sydney meant.
For a moment, his mind went blank, and he tensed up once again.
He suddenly clenched his fists, looked fixedly at Sydney, and asked in a hoarse, shaky voice, "Do you mean I used to have Dallin's character?"
Julien had not met Dallin in person. He had only seen Dallin's pictures.
Although he had heard about Dallin's character and demeanor, he just had never thought that Dallin and he had something in common.
And the others would not tell him about that.
Consequently, he didn't know that Dallin resembled him. NôvelDrama.Org is the owner.
As the man visibly got agitated, Sydney felt sorry for him but nodded. "Yeah."
She knew that this was a heavy blow for him.
After all, he had forgone his character and grew up into someone favored by his mother. He did it for her sake.
He did it to make her happy.
In the end, he was told that it was not because his mother favored gentle boys. She trained him that way to quench her longing for a man.
Anyone would find it hard to accept, not to mention a proud man like Julien.
He bowed his head and fell silent. His expression could not be seen.
But the coldness and depression around him betrayed his anger.
Sydney just didn't know who he was angry with.
Dallin, her, or his mother?
After quite a while, Julien suddenly raised his head. Crimson and bloodshot, his eyes stared at Sydney. His voice got even more hoarse with a tinge of inexplicable emotion. "I need some space."
Sydney knew that he was feeling bad. It was too complex and overwhelming. He indeed needed some space to calm down.
At that, she nodded. "Okay, I'll go back to my room."
"It's okay." Julien grabbed her hand and stopped her from getting up, "I'll go to the study."
With that, he let go of her hand, stood up, and left for the study.
His mind was in turmoil at that moment. Even so, he chose to step away instead of asking her to leave.
He was a real man.
This man had always stood upright but somehow hunched a little. Seeing him like that, Sydney felt a pricking pain in her heart. Her eyes were filled with distress.
Since he was born, this man had stood above the crowd. He was unmatched and admired by everyone, but the dejection he showed at that moment was shocking and depressing.
He was dejected because of his mother, who he had always respected.
Although his mother brought him into this world because she wanted to gain freedom, he still loved and respected her. Unexpectedly, impurities were hidden in her love for him.
She wanted a son with a gentle character only because the man she loved was gentle. Unable to see him, she trained her son into someone like him. Through her son, she tried to relieve her longing.
Would any mother see her son as a stand-in for her lover?
Julien hunched because he was a stand-in for Dallin.
Everyone in this world was unique. No one should be a stand-in for another person.
Julien was a proud man. Somehow, he became a stand-in for another person without his knowledge. The heavy blow really overwhelmed him.
Ironically, the one who delivered the fatal blow was his mother who he had always loved and respected rather than a mortal enemy.
Sometimes, the most painful wounds were from one's loved ones.
The rims of Sydney's eyes reddened. Squeezing her hands, she suddenly got up from the sofa and shouted to him, "Julien."
Julien had reached the door to the study. His hand was on the doorknob, about to turn. As Sydney's voice came over, he paused without looking back or responding.
Sydney looked at him and said seriously, "I haven't told you this before. In fact, I've been regretful that you didn't change back into that gentle boy."
Julien froze. His eyes turned even redder.
'What does she mean?
'Does she want me to continue to be a stand-in for Dallin?'
Just as he was about to turn around and ask her, Sydney added, "But I no longer think that way. I'm glad that you didn't change back into the former you because that was not the real you. Your current character was formed from hypnosis. You acquired it on your own. It's not influenced by anyone and might be your innate character. You like it and want it. I'm happy for you. Congratulations on being yourself!"
When she didn't know how his former character had formed, she was regretful that he didn't regain his gentleness. That was what she loved the most about him.
Everyone liked gentle and elegant boys.
She was no longer regretful when she learned where his tenderness came from.
She was even grateful to Lyra, who had Micah hypnotize Julien. It indirectly caused Julien to form his own character.