Ruined(Eternal Monarch)

~Juno’s POV~This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.

I’ve noticed something about Rex recently. He isn’t perfect, so he makes a mistake now and then. However, I am not without flaws. However, the manner in which he handled the matter caused me to reevaluate my judgment of him. He genuinely wants our relationship to flourish, and we both needed to get to know one another. I also need to move on from my past with men. Rex is not the same as Alex. He was wrong, and I was wrong, too. I made him feel awful by putting words in his mouth. He is no longer at ease with me. I can see he feels like shit.

“I’m sorry.” He lowered his chin to look me in the eye. “I should have kept my mouth shut and not said anything like that to you. I put words in your mouth. It wasn’t right.” Unlike him, he simply nodded. I nipped the inside of my bottom lip as I curled my lips. This is the most heinous act I have ever committed, but in order for us to move on from what has just occurred, I need to see him smile. I gritted my teeth and conceded. He is, after all, mine.

“Come and take a shower with me.”

My heart was pounding against the inside of my ear. I resisted the need to clutch my chest. I am not going to be a kitty. Never! I am the fucken queen. I may not sleep with him, but there is so much we can do without having sex. I want him, but I am scared. Yep, I said it. I’m scared. At the very least, I’m being truthful to myself. I looked him in the eyes and noticed a grin on his face. He didn’t squander any time. He began undoing the buttons on his shirt. I dashed into the bathroom to have a peek in the mirror.

What was I thinking when I asked him that? Is it possible to bathe with Rex without anything happening? I shoved him away only a few moments ago. What are we going to label this act? My pussy started throbbing at the prospect of his Greek statue standing naked in front of me. What is going on? Am I supposed to feel this way? I closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths in and out. My cheeks were flushed, so I cradled them in my hands. I never thought of Rex that way. What the hell is wrong with me?

Juno Rex thinks we need to wait for the full moon to shift. Well, if he becomes one of us, we will be able to shift and make Alex pay. However, this is not just about Alex; it is also about fully accepting responsibility as the Reina. This is about forming an unbreakable bond with Rex.

I clutched the bathroom basin so tightly as I looked in the mirror. I hate to admit that Athena is right. How much longer will I let my past govern my future? I am not defined by my past. Why do I feel as though I’ve been impolite to my mate? I closed my eyes once more. I opened the shower glass door and entered. I turned on the faucet. I allowed the water to flow over my body while pressing my hand against the wall.

Juno Rex isn’t one to play by the rules. He fabricates them. Stop giving me Ideas, Athena. You are making matters worse.

I took a big breath, and all the things I didn’t want to think about began flooding my mind. I was thinking about a lot of filthy ideas. Rex strolled right in and my hands flew to cover my tits. He smirked and twisted his lips into that crooked grin that made my knees tremble. What on earth is the meaning of this? He entered the shower and shut the glass door. I drank at the sight of him standing naked in front of me with a lustful appetite. I’m not sure how long I remained there, statue-like. Water flowing down my body, my eyes glued to his long, thick, huge cock, fully aware that things could go horribly wrong if it slid between my thighs. What would it be like to have his head between my thighs? What would it be like to spend the entire night naked with him?

I gulp heavily as if it were a sip of water after being so dehydrated that swallowing hurts. Shit! Where do all these desires come from? That was the first time I’d ever looked at Rex in that way. Why today, following our altercation? My mind was a mess. Is he a silent fucking machine or does he talk nasty while fucking?

Juno, just who are you? I’ve lost faith in my own thoughts. What would it be like to have his cock inside of me while he murmurs filthy things in my ears? When my gaze met with his, he cocked his head to the side. For a brief moment, I wished I could run my hands over his broad chest and grip him tightly so he wouldn’t slide away. I wanted to know that he would never let go of me. I wanted to feel his heartbeat and see how strong his grip is. To know it’s us against the world. It feels as though he knows me standing naked in front of him, is doing unimaginable things to me and creating disturbing ideas of how wide my legs would be when he is inside of me, how I would sit on it and grind on it till he begs for mercy. Who am I kidding? If there is anyone between the two of us who would plead for mercy, it would be me. I mean, look at the long, thick cock in front of you, Juno.

As he put my hair behind my ears, causing my pussy to throb wildly, I stopped breathing. This is something he has always done. What makes today different? What exactly is wrong with me? This is so wrong. I’m not supposed to have thoughts like this about Rex. When I’m not even close to being ready to be claimed and marked. It’s startling and shocking because I’ve known him for months and have never seen him in that way. Yes, he is my mate, but I’ve never had such ideas about him. I can’t seem to take my gaze away from him, his massive cock, his abs, and his piercing eyes. I am unable to look away. It’s insane, but it’s also insane! Why is it that my body and soul are suddenly on fire and being engulfed by thoughts of him? I believe I have a massive girlie crush on my mate. My head is filled with the most heinous thoughts and dreams of what I could do to him or what he could do to me. I managed to muster the courage to remove my hands from my tits slowly. And, like a fool, my hands squeezed into nervous fists and my gaze fell down, not daring to look at him. With my tits so hard like that, nope, I am not looking. I am fully exposed. I summoned some confidence and locked my gaze on his for a split second.

“Um…” I was about to say something when Rex looked at me and didn’t say anything. I bit my lips and looked away when he did not say anything. I felt ashamed as my cheeks flushed, and I thought how foolish I had been to invite him to shower with me since I now looked like a terrified little kitten. I’m unable to look at him. I felt extremely naked and venerable in his presence. Well, I am naked, so scratch the naked part. But just as I was about to stray my attention off the ground to stare at his face once more, I came face to face with his cock again. My eyes were glued to it yet again.