shuhaige
SHAME
“You told me to trust you and to not worry about this pathetic bastard! Or is this Rian boy a new one, huh, Shyne?! Are you that big of a slut young lady, that no one in this family was able to track down while hell you were in as a teenager?!” My father shouted.Original from NôvelDrama.Org.
I felt myself turn cold, and I could swear that my hair felt like it turned white as nervousness settled in the pit of my stomach, and my entire body froze on the spot. I looked at the paper on my hand and glanced at the ones that were on my father’s desk. I deleted these photos, and some of the photos didn’t even come from me. They were selfies of me and Rian, and there were even ones where we just finished having sex and I had the bed covers surrounding me so only my shoulders and arms were exposed aside from my head. I even had bed hair.
“Shyne,” my father leaned back on his chair and closed his eyes as both his hands were on the top of his table and he drummed his fingers on the surface.
The way he drummed his fingers were more forceful than normal, and I knew he was beyond furious. It was a habit that we both shared, and I felt my throat tighten at my father’s anger. He was giving me an opportunity to explain myself and give a solution before he gives me an ultimatum that he knows very well I would hate.
“Shyne, give me a solution now, or else,” he said while he still kept his eyes closed. I know he was thinking while he was waiting for me to give a suggestion.
“D-dad, I-I.. Umh,” I cleared my throat as I saw my father’s face scrunch up in deeper anger as his frown deepened as well.
“Dad, he’s the Rian I told you about before. I have no idea how all of these photos were retrieved and printed. I never had them, and the ones I had were already deleted years ago. I have no idea who made this, but all I know is that they knew about me and Rian,” I was talking more properly, but my heart was racing like crazy, “I-I think that it was the twins that did this, since they’re the ones who knows ma and Rians, and they both hate me more than anything. They’re also the ones who had a fight with me a few months ago. If we could check them, and also Rian’s cousin, they could be the main suspects, and we could get more security, and-”
“ENOUGH!” My father stood up, shouted and banged the table. His things fell on the floor, and I dropped the folder out of surprise.
I felt like I was going to have a panic attack, but I kept my cool. I needed to keep my cool, because showing weakness would only add to my father’s anger towards me. He looked at me with dread and I knew he didn’t care about what I was saying. He wasn’t satisfied with my explanation or attempt at giving him a solution.
“You will go to the United States of America in a week. Prepare everything, and I will settle everything in your school, so you can finish while you’re in the U. S.,” He grabbed his phone and started to dial something, “I want you to fix everything and let me handle this. I don’t care about your explanation, young lady. I will solve this. You are not allowed to go back to this country or to anywhere in Asia. Do you hear me?! You are a disgrace!”
My heart sank, and I wanted to cry, but there were no tears, just shock at everything that’s happening. My body felt numb and cold, but I was no longer trembling. I just felt like a failure. I felt lost.
“Go back to your room. Call your mother and siblings. Tell them of this pathetic situation you’re in, and GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME! You are the most USELESS CHILD I HAVE!”
My heart broke and I saw a shadow behind my father. The shadow laughed as he continued to speak to someone on the phone. I couldn’t hear anything, and my body just moved on its own. I walked and walked until I found myself in an open space. I wasn’t in my room.
“Shyne?” Someone called me, but I don’t know who it was, “Shyne!” the voice screamed.
Suddenly, my tears fell and I felt lighter than air. It was as if gravity no longer existed, and the words my father spoke of were gone. I felt cool and wet. I suddenly began to choke on water. I was drowning. I dived deeper in the pool as I started blacking out from the lack of air.
“This is your fault. You did this to yourself, and as much as I hate to admit it, you deserve to die,” A woman’s voice echoed, but my eyes wouldn’t open.
“You’re such a failure! One disappointing attempt after another!” My head throbbed, “You didn’t even die after trying to drown yourself! You are such a disgrace!” A man’s voice bellowed with hatred.
I could hear the two voices scream again and again with multiple insults, but all I could do was keep my eyes closed and hope that they couldn’t tell that I was awake. Their words stung, and I could feel the tears on the side of my eyes begin to build up and drop from my closed eyes.
“You’re the reason she became this rebellious! You tolerate her uselessness, and now look at what she became!” The man shouted.
“Me?! You’re the one who put all those ideas and pressure on her shoulders! YOU made her want to kill herself, and you have no one else to blame but yourself! Let’s just hope that she dies after this, because with your attitude, you’ll just make everything worse!” I heard a slap and a loud gasp.