The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin by Moonlight Muse

Chapter 17

The Lycan Princess and the Temptation of Sin 17. My Demons

SKYLA.

As the door shuts behind him, my small smirk fades away, and I look around the cottage. That cosy touch feels empty… My stomach drops, guilt filling me, followed by a void, one so deep it almost hurts to

breathe. This is the part I hate the most; I know my flaws… I know when I’m fucking up but it doesn’t stop me from self- sabotaging everything. Even then, it’s easier to identify my flaws and another thing entirely trying to move away from them. 1

Breaking a cycle that, for a fleeting moment, fills that emptiness, is hard. I live in those moments… It offers me temporary relief, a distraction I really need from the constant war that wages in my mind. But it always comes to an end and then it all sinks in, knowing I fucked up. But deep down I know I’ll do it all over again, because I need that,

those small moments of reprieve they offer

1. 4

Picking up my phone, I unlock it and click on the chat app. It’s instinctual, another bad habit of mine that I’ve picked up recently. It

has become a part of my routine… One I

always knew would probably end in disappointment, yet still, I check my

messages anyway.

Still nothing.

Sighing heavily, I stare unseeingly at the

screen.

I can still feel his touch on my body, and I

don’t know how to feel about it. In the

moment everything feels good, but then… now, I feel hollow. Moving toward the front door, I can still smell his scent clinging to me, to this place…. 1

Locking the door, I sigh, resting my forehead against the wood before I slowly

turn and head to the bedroom. A place that

still smells of him and sex… It’s like I can’t

escape him, escape what I did. I messed up and once Royce finds out…

I sigh heavily, feeling sick with guilt and I

turn away, shutting the door, hoping hist scent won’t linger too long.

“Meow?”

Malevolent’s whine draws my attention to

her, and I smile softly as I crouch down and

scoop her into my arms. “Come on, little

one.” I whisper, nuzzling my nose into her

neck. She’s my forever one.

Nothing helps, nothing ever helps.

Royce’s words fill my mind. ‘You’re worth

more than a one-night hook-up…’ Why do

those words sting so much more now?

I shake my head; he just doesn’t know me…

Knowing I won’t be able to go back to the

bedroom, I head to the lounge and drop onto

the sofa, cradling Malevolent to my chest. I

curl up, staring at the ceiling, and watch the shadowy patterns of the rustling leaves

outside the window reflect. I’m in the dark, and the curtains are open, but I have no energy to get up and close them.

Why did I do it?

Sure, casual hook-ups aren’t uncommon for

me, but with someone who I know and is a teacher at the school? Usually, I am not that foolish, nothing good will come of this.

Sure, I know I wanted Royce, and his refusal was getting to me… Yeah, I’m not making sense. Was I trying to prove something?

Yes, I was, and I know it makes me a bitch, but if I couldn’t have Royce, then I’ll settle

for his brother.

Nicely played Sky…

Shame fills me. If Royce finds out, I bet he’ll be disgusted that I bounced from one

brother to the other so easily… 1

Nice work.

Rolling onto my side, I run my fingers

through my hair, breathing deeply, wanting NôvelDrama.Org copyrighted © content.

nothing more than to hurt something,

anything. I want to scream, and cry, the guilt and hollowness seeping deeper inside me.

Stupid, how can I always be so fucking

stupid? People think I’m a fucking badass

just because I’m tough and I’ll jump to

protect you with everything I have… but no one sees the fucked up shit inside my head… 1

Sucking in a deep breath, I flex my fingers, trying to rid the horrid feeling eating away

at me and creating a void so big I may just

slip into it and never return. That

maddening state where you want to scream

and cry, both threatening to take over, the

urge to wreak havoc and destroy everything

around me, or even… destroy myself…

I just want to feel something other than empty, angry or out of control…

My lip quivers and I stare at the backrest of the sofa, trying to regain myself. Even if I agreed to a casual thing, I can’t let it happen again even if he was pretty good in bed or if he gave me an incredible orgasm… I can’t… not with him. It’s wrong on so many levels.

But… it is momentary… deep down, I know I’ll fuck up again. I always do.

I stare at my phone. Reign…

I feel sick, feeling as if I’m betraying him, but he’s the one refusing to talk to me… but does it even matter? It’s not like we are a

couple-

His ex. Fuck!

I jolt upright, my heart thundering, and I wonder if something happened and they’re

together again.

The thought hurts, but I should be happy for

him. That doesn’t mean he needed to cut it

off with me… and stop talking to me.

You’re overthinking Sky, chill.

I can feel my anger and frustration rising, and my claws elongate.

Fuck calm down…

Malevolent meows, but even she knows to move away when I lose control. My heart thunders and right now, I can’t lose control. I hate how I have empty blanks in my memory whenever I completely spiral. What if I do something I regret?

Standing up, I run to the bedroom. Pulling open my top chest drawer, I scramble around, dropping my phone in the process; it hits the floor, but I don’t care. I can feel myself losing control, feel the beast within raging to come forward.

I grab one of the vials of serum with shaking hands and bite off the lid, my eyes blazing, my aura raging around me so powerfully that even the spells Delsanra and Raihana, two of the most powerful witches of our time

have put on me to mask my aura, are not enough right now. 2

I growl as my Lycan tries to stop me from

taking it, but I win and gulp it down. Pain. rips through me and I scream in agony as it cripples me, making me fall to my knees. The poison bleeding through me, setting my blood on fire, as it eats away at the monster

within me. 4

My eyes sting and it feels like my head will burst as I grab onto the chest of drawers, my

nails splinter the wood but I can’t hold on

and tumble forward, my head hits the

ground, my heart beating violently as my body tries to fight the poison. My vision blurs and I feel the anger fade away…

Pain and sex… they help… I prefer the latter… I hate having to resort to this… 2

My eyelids flutter shut, only the pounding of

my heart is violently beating in my ears, my breath shuddering and I feel Malevolent brush against my hands, but I can’t move…

Dad… Mama….. everyone has tried to help me

control it… but only I can… no one can do it.

for me… and I’m failing, I always fail…

I feel…

My mind becomes blurry, hazy even.

Peace…

My mind feels at ease and I lay there for a

while until the beeping of my phone makes me open my eyes and I slowly reach over for

it.

Who would text me at this time?

I gasp when I see the notification, my eyes flying open.

Reign!

I force myself to sit up, my entire body

feeling so much heavier, as I somehow

unlock my phone and stare at the message. It takes me several moments to read it as my

vision comes in and out of focus.

Reign707: Hey stranger, I’m sorry, but I had something come up, and I had a big

argument that really bloody angered me. I ran into some issues and then couldn’t get into my account long story short. But I’ve created a new account to be on the safe side and will stop using this one. I’ll send you a message from there. I am sorry and I promise I’ll make it up to you… if you have it in you to forgive me, I really do want to meet up with you and I think once you agree, you’ll understand. I’ll wait for your reply.

Goodnight. 1

My stomach drops as I stare at his message, reading it again.

What? He didn’t mean to blank me? It’s too

much to focus on when my head is

pounding. Another message pops up and I read it through my blurred vision.

Reign2.0: This is my new one. I’m looking forward to hearing from you.

I don’t know what to make of it and I drop

onto my side, closing my eyes. For now… I just want to forget it all…

Now I really feel like I betrayed Reign… I

couldn’t even wait and think it over with a

level mind… I let my emotions win once

again…

As always. I failed.

A/N: Hello everyone! Firstly Happy

Valentines! My Alpha was fully satisfied with the day so I managed this chapter in XD on a serious note, I know many people aren’t liking the book but I always stick to plan, Skyla will make decisions which might make you hate her, or you find it sick, but this is her story, and we are going to see it through every step, until the end. There will be things you won’t like but I never deviate from the plan. So when you need a break from the story, please take it. 🙂 44