The Search for Freedom

KailaBelonging © NôvelDram/a.Org.

Alicia wasn't totally a heartless woman, for she had feelings like a normal human being. It didn't mean that she was a numb just because she made a mistake, especially that nobody is perfect. I knew it was the reason why she was there with me, perhaps to apologize for everything.

Even though she wouldn't express her regret in words, I gradually seen it in her actions. I could see how she would repent in silence. She also wanted to help me solve my problems from little to huge, perhaps to be able to regain her loss. I realized that not all who made a mistake was totally wicked. Sometimes they only need another opportunity to prove that they had change and would not do what they did before. What someone should do was to give that person another chance because they deserve it.

However, there were some people who wouldn't apologize though they knew they had hurt others. Those kind of people were defending their wrong belief. Perhaps they thought life was a weather: sometimes good and sometimes bad. Those who were hurt by them, they believed they were unlucky and those who weren't affected by their attacks were the lucky.

Everything had a reason, as what they would say, even their unforgivable deeds, there was a reason why they were doing that. Those people were making themselves fool, without considering others, the only one thing in their minds was their own happiness.

"You already know how to perform magic, and because of that, I don't need to bother myself teaching you. Maybe we can search for the next one who was destined to fight you?" Alicia guessed. "Where do you think we can find that person?" "Search who?" I asked.

"Search for someone who was destined to fight you."

"Are you telling me that, there's someone who was destined to fight me?" I furrowed my forehead. "But what about those people whom I needed to kill?" I was really curious.

"Yeah, that's exactly what I wanted to tell you, but I was run out of time to explain, however, the people you need to kill are the people who were destined to fight you," Alicia explained. "That was the reason why amongst those six boys you had killed, one of them was destined to fight you," she added.

Maybe it was the reason why I thought Alicia had counted wrong. And there was one thing which made me feel guilty: why I killed those six boys if I only needed to kill one among them? The one who was destined to fight me? Alicia was always making me confused, she hid many things from me, and those things would only revealed when or after the crime was done.

How could I bring back the lives of those innocent people? I was undoubtedly a killer who wasn't thinking; I was just doing what would enter my mind. And I didn't know how to blame because Alicia told me once I could choose who to kill, but she seemed to to be lying. If she could only say the exact words, I didn't kill those boys. It was my mistake too that even I heard her said the word "ninety-nine," and I became curious, I didn't asked her about it.

Nonetheless, how could I not also blame Alicia if she was the one who knew everything? She was a mute who would only discuss her own plan. She might wanted me to kill everyone though I didn't need to. I might only add the problem, I should forget what happen because even if however I would blame Alicia, everything couldn't be undone. It was just a mistake, and if I'd break out partnership because of it, we couldn't fix our mistakes anymore. "Why didn't you told me this earlier? That I can't choose who to kill though I have control to myself?" I asked in a worried manner.

I thought I could choose those hundred of people to kill because Alicia told me I could do whatever I want if I'm the one who was controlling myself. But then, it seemed like the curse was still my boss, because I couldn't choose those people. "Sorry not telling you about this earlier, but you're right. You need to kill those people who were already destined to fight against you, I forgot to tell you this, perhaps because of our busyness."

"If that's so... okay." I sighed. "We can do nothing about it. We had started, so we must finish this. I should prepare for I seemed to fight against strong and powerful people. I need to become powerful."

"You're right, after you killed someone, your next enemy is more stronger than the first one. Definitely, practicing magics and power can help you and your mission become easier."

Maybe it was the reason why I could not see or the power of sight wouldn't show me the people who were destined to fight me. That those people were also powerful and their power were protecting them from the power of my vision. It would become more dangerous if they were not just normal human beings.

"Do you know who's the next person I needed to fight with? The power of my sight won't show them to me. Do you have a hunch why?" I asked.

"Maybe they are protected by something. I also didn't know if who they are and what kind of things they can do, if they are powerful or not. Maybe they are not just normal humans, because if they are, I already saw them just like the boy you'd killed."

"What if there was a possibility that we cannot see them? What will happen to me and to the curse?" I asked.

"Assuredly, what you are thinking is impossible, because it's like an ordeal and after the first one, there will be another. You only need to wait. If it happens that nobody shows, I don't know what will happen, but there's a possibility for the curse will control you again, because what it can only do is to kill anyone it wants to."

"You're right, but we should search for those people than to wait here, especially since we don't know where they are. I also knew that if the curse become bored, it will control me again."

"I have an idea if where's the next person. Come take my hand and let me bring you there." Alicia offered me her hand; I held it and we suddenly transported to the other place.