Unforgiven Sins

Cinyla’s POV

A few days passed and that person didn’t bother me anymore – the person behind giving me nervousness and fear since he bothered me with the texts and calls that he do for all day.

“Hey, are you okay? You’ve been stupid before, is there a problem?” Ben asked in surprise because I suddenly thought that’s why he just disappeared like a bubble. It’s Saturday and BenChua invited me to go out first because Mama is resting in our house so I agreed with him to absorb some good ambiance.

“Y-yes! I just thought of something,” I said while looking at him. We are here in Lyuirs Park where many people like to stay here to take a walk and hang out with their loved ones. I don’t know why he thought of it, but it’s good.Content (C) Nôv/elDra/ma.Org.

He came closer and pinched my nose. “O-ouch! S-STOP!” He touched my nose which turned to tomato now and was annoyed to face him. “BenChua! It hurts so much!” I said giggling.

“Oh, Sorry just stop thinking about anything, I’m worried. If he disturbs you again, I will kill him!” he explained.

“But I will give him a hard and damn punch coming from me and kick him, crazy!” he said proudly while giving some demonstrations.

“You know, you idiot! Stop it, you can’t do that.” I cheered him up.

He just sit down next to me and said, “I know I have no knowledge and experience in karate, Cinyla. But I don’t want anyone to hurt you.” he said sadly. It bent down as if giving pain to my chest. I don’t know but what he said next seemed to make sense, whatever it was. I just don’t want to think and hope anymore.

“Thank you,” I whispered. “You know don’t be sad anymore, I’ve been emotionally  lately, now you’re done your deception!” I slapped him to remove the strange presence I was feeling.

But I stopped when he held both my hands. It was as if it had electricity because of the strange tension I was feeling right now. “I’m not kidding, Cinyla. I’m willing to gamble my life just to keep you safe. No matter what happens, I’ll do everything for you.”

Right now I can no longer understand him, not because of the last thing he said but why he had to do everything. What words did mama did to him to be convinced and treat me like this?

“Don’t even think about it, it’s important that you know I’m here.” He pulled my hand away and let me take him to where. It seems even more confusing when he mentions a few more words that I know he’s aiming for, but I don’t want to hope because I can’t base our collaborations. After all, if that’s all, there’s still too little for me to say if what he’s saying is true.

We stopped being dramatic and walked for a while. He took me to street food, I didn’t know what we were going to do; I realized we are here to buy some foods to eat. “Let’s eat it!” He pointed to the man with his goods.

“Y-you eat that?” I asked in surprise because he looked like he was unlikely to eat them, besides, he looked like he had something so he just ran away and ended up in our house. But the truth is, I love all kinds of street foods.

“Of course! I also like all of that, get it because it is delicious!” he said amazingly.

“Really?” then, I follow what he said.

I didn’t miss anything, but I took it and ate because he would answer it and lastly he offer it for free.

“Full, huh?!” he laughed.

“Thank you!” I gave him a fake sweet smile and eat a lot of Kwek-Kwek which looks like an orange egg.

“The depth of what you’re thinking, what’s bothering you?” he asked why I stopped chewing.

“Nothing, you’re the strength of your feelings! Just eat,” I whispered while biting him with a kikiam in his mouth so that he could no longer speak.

OMG! The speed of my heartbeat is so fast! Why does he think this?

I was swallowed up in no time because of the tension we both felt, but because of the extreme closeness, we both had. I chose to stay away because maybe something else would happen.

“S-sorry…”

I just eat the food that I have until awkwardness begins with us. But in the end, we both laughed because our thoughts matched. And what we have in mind is pure nonsense.

“But you know what? I am happy to meet you. Thank you, Cinyla.”

I was almost deaf to what he said, what am I? why But it’s nice to hear, it’s as if I’ve only just heard such a thing.

“H-ha?” as if I didn’t understand. But honestly, I’m just holding back the thrill as well. I don’t know, it’s just a simple thank you but my heart is overflowing with joy.

“For this, I mean to thank you for accepting me in your life and your house. I was homeless at that time, I need a place to live first,” he said.

Then he looked straight at the children playing with the kite and suddenly said, “It’s really hard for me to find a place to stay as I know it because when my dad died two years ago, it was hard and my mom got a trauma until we found out that she had stage 4 cancer. It was very difficult, but because I have only one child. I need to be strong, I didn’t suffer financially but I was drained physically, mentally, and emotionally. Until last year it was my 24th birthday on March 9 and Mommy was brought back just in time. And that moment, my emotions were mixed. And that day is her last day. ” his sad explanation.

I approached and tapped him, behind his sweet smile a while ago. It disappeared and was replaced by a sad aura. I can’t blame him for his sudden change of mood, because what happened to him was also painful. Until I realized this day. Today is March 9 din, then I decided to greet him. “OMG! H-happy birthday, BenChua!” I greeted him but he gave a forced smile.

I don’t know the next scene I did, my right hand spontaneously moved and pulled him so we could get in his car.

” Are we going home, now?” I asked.

“Yes! Unless we will go somewhere that I think makes you feel better. It’s your birthday today, right? You need it!” I would gladly suggest it to him.

“Where?” his innocent question.

“Just trust me! I’ll be the one to drive.” I said proudly.

“You know?!” he asked with a shock and we were now in his car.

“Of course! When my dad died, he still taught me. He just sold his car because at that time there was a financial problem in the business. So no choice, I just commute. I don’t want to buy it because even if I know, I want to still get used to riding. ” I will explain.

“So by the way, go ahead. Be careful driving.” It answered and I started to turn the steering wheel.

@STAR CITY

Colorful rides and it doesn’t seem like a needle will fall on so many people but this is the one I look forward to going to again. It was a long time before I landed here in this place because of what happened in my life and when that man left me– my ex. Honestly, I don’t want to go back to it, but this place makes me feel happy every time I am here. I was refreshed!

We once walked through the crowded place, “Here we go!”

“Wow! Star City!” he said like a child.

“I don’t think you like this as well as rides?” this question causes me to focus on him because I might think I’m not with him and leave him to enjoy. “Of course!” I answer quickly.

I pulled him over and told him to ride the Ferris wheel as long as we pay first and buy a ticket. “Because today is your birthday, I will give you a treat. You deserve it!” I’m happy to offer it to him.

“Don’t! Even though, I don’t want you to spend.” It stopped and he handed me the money.

“bu-”

He just paid for the ticket for the two of us and I did nothing but let go and just recover later for our meal. I don’t want him to be the only one to pay.

“All right, I’ll take care of our food,” I said.

“Not either!” his quick answer made me pout.

“Wow! Both of you are a cute couple, huh?!” a saleswoman said while BenChua handed two tickets at the same time.

I’m almost shocked, what does she say?! We are a couple plus a cute couple, what?!

“We’re not dating, miss!” I react quickly.

BenChua suddenly pulled me onto the Ferris wheel. “Why don’t we just be honest?” joking while still laughing.

I slapped him right on his arm. “Can I leave you here?” I asked seriously.

“It’s just a joke, Cinyla. Let’s go to the Ferris wheel. How many of us are there!” He pointed and pulled me again.

BenChua and I just pulled and pulled hands so that we were lovers when we looked at each other, but the truth is that we are just friends. I almost ate the things I said before that I didn’t like him, but in fact, I wanted him. But wait, I liked him as a friend, not as a boyfriend or crush. It’s vague that this will happen.

Wherever we rode so we could enjoy the rest of the time because tomorrow I want to go to church. After what happened, I need to be grateful and continue to ask for her guidance.

The two of us almost got tired because about four or five rides were probably chosen and we both rode.

“It’s tiring!” I shouted.

“Yeah, let’s eat first.” I babysit here and we first went to fast food near us.

I immediately asked him for a seat and said I’ll treat him and I’ll take care of the order. I lined up and looked at what we could eat. I was selective until I saw a familiar person.

My ex is here. Of the many fast foods in the Philippines, this is where we met. I quickly evaded and immediately went to BenChua’s waiting place.

“Oh, your speed! Have you ordered yet?”

“Why do you seem to have seen a ghost?” I added.

I sat down first and exhaled and inhaled before I could properly say what happened. “First nothing, second he’s here. Third, let’s go!” I quickly offered him.

“Who? Wait, why are you in a hurry? Let’s talk about food, who did you see?

“Hi, Cinyla!” A full voice greeted us.

“H-hello, Josh!” I said.

“Y-your boyfriend?” he asked and gave me a lot of questions because of his tune. To be honest, because of the power of destiny, I could do nothing but go with the flow. I approached BenChua and cling to his arm as if I were a couple. “Yes! He is my boyfriend.” I quickly introduced him without thinking any thoughts, t because I wanted him to disappear from my sight like he was about to leave.

“Nice congrats, bro!” he said and feeling close to BenChua. Until a woman go in front of us and kissed him on the cheek. “Love, come on! Let go there!” he said to Josh, my ultimate crush.

“All right, Cinyla! Nice meeting you here. Bye!” He said goodbye and left afterward.

When they finally left, I immediately lost my grip on BenChua. “Oh, that’s right! But wait, did I hear you right, I am your b-boyfriend?” he asked consciously.

“No! I’m sorry BenChua because he is my ultimate crush. All right, order first. This is the money no matter what, he’s gone.” I handed him the money but he did not stand up but annoyed me.

“Kiss me, babe, first,” he said seductively.

“Shall we eat or will I leave you here?” I asked.

“All right babe, I’ll order. Just wait for me.” He finally stand up and kissed me on the forehead. I realized it was wrong when he finally left to order. While I was left here stupid and irritated.

Ugh! Why is he kissing me? Ugh! BenChua is more annoying!

I feel like an I am crazy because I whisper and whisper. Since I was being looked at, I just adjusted myself and took out my cellphone, and pretend I am reading something to avoid their attention.

Ugh! This is your fault, BenChua. You will find the babe you are looking for!

Until a few minutes I waited he arrived with food already.” Here’s that babe!” he offered with teased voice. I ignored him but just let him go and get some food.