Chapter 945: The Conclusion of the Rehearsal
Luna denied it, “No, it’s not.”
“What do you think it’s for then?”
Unable to answer when asked, she could only look at the doctor dumbly.
The doctor said, “Your thinking is wrong. What you have experienced, is it what you wanted to experience? No, right? You were forced, you are a victim, you are still pure, you must realize this.”
Luna indeed felt a sense of sudden clarity.
She had always cared about what she had experienced.
Yes, she was forced.
She was a victim.
“You have trapped yourself in a moral cage,” the doctor said. “This morality is what you set for yourself. In reality, those who know your situation know that you are innocent. They never care about your experiences, they only care about you and feel sorry for you.”
Luna did feel a lot of kindness around her.
Tyler’s colleagues, or Freya’s companionship.
In her most difficult times, Freya had always been there for her, encouraging her and comforting her.
“What do you think is the meaning of life?” the doctor asked.
Luna shook her head.This belongs © NôvelDra/ma.Org.
She couldn’t answer.
The doctor said, “To please yourself, that is the meaning of living.”
Luna was surprised, “To please myself?”
“Yes, to live is just to live, everyone’s life has an end, it’s just a matter of length. During this time, shouldn’t we make ourselves happy?”
“The principle is correct, but in society, who can live without being influenced?” Luna felt that living meant not being able to please oneself completely without caring about others.
“Family, lover, friends, aren’t they all shackles of society?”
The doctor smiled, “Yes.”
“Then are you telling me to please myself?” Luna asked.
The doctor said, “Yes.”
“Just because the shackles are heavy, we need to change our perspective.” He said, “What you said is correct, but have you ever thought about the meaning of your own life?”
Luna had never thought deeply about this question.
“The meaning is simple, it’s to ignore other people’s opinions and live for yourself.”
“A person who cares too much about what others think and say, is living for others, you must live for yourself, without letting others control your emotions.”
It seemed that what he said made sense.
Luna fell into deep thought.
The doctor continued, “The thing people fear most is internal conflict within oneself, simply put, it’s when there are too many thoughts in one’s mind, where actions and outcomes have been played out a thousand times in the mind.”
Luna had indeed been like this.
At least in her relationship with Orion, she had always worried about the outcome.
Worried that he would change his mind.
Worried that one day he would grow tired of her.
But how could the outcome be predicted when the action hadn’t been taken yet?
“I understand,” Luna said.
…
After leaving the psychiatrist’s office, Luna didn’t let anyone accompany her and spent a day and a night alone.
The next day, she took a shower, dressed neatly, and appeared at Orion’s place.
She felt that the psychiatrist was right about one thing.
The outcome one foresees may not be the actual outcome.
It is already destined.
If her result is tragic, she cannot change it.
In that case, she might as well face it squarely.
If Orion changes his mind in the middle, it’s not a bad thing either. At least she has gone through it and will have no regrets.
Luna suddenly appeared, and Orion was not surprised.
He looked at Luna and asked, “Should I dismiss the current nanny?”
Luna said, “I will take care of Stella from now on.”
Orion understood what she meant and nodded, “I see, come in.”
Luna walked in and asked, “Are we moving back?”
Orion asked, “Do you like it here, or do you prefer our previous place? Whichever you like, we will stay there, anyway this is also my property.”
This place was not as big as the previous one.
But it was quiet and comfortable.
She replied, “This place is fine.”
Orion smiled, “I think it’s good too.”
The nanny who put Stella to sleep came out.
Orion called her, “Come here for a moment.”
The nanny nodded.
Orion gave her a large red envelope, which he had prepared in advance.
“You have taken care of my daughter with all your heart and effort, thank you. But, because the child’s mother is back, we may not need a nanny at home…”
“I understand,” the woman took the red envelope, “Thank you.”
Orion said, “You are a good nanny who takes responsibility. You will find a better job. The pay is not much here, but it is my way of compensating you.”
“Mr. Russo, you are too kind,” the woman said, “The salary you gave is already generous.”
Orion said, “You have taken care of my daughter.”
“Your daughter is adorable.”
After exchanging pleasantries, Orion escorted her out.
Shutting the door, Orion turned to Luna, “Didn’t you bring your luggage?”
Luna said, “No.”
“Should I accompany you to get them?”
Luna shook her head, “I want to start over.”
Everything, starting from scratch.
Orion said, “That’s great.”
“When Stella wakes up, let’s go buy things together. I’ll cover the expenses.”
Luna nodded. “Okay.”
But Stella was still fast asleep, looking peaceful.
The two sat in the living room, feeling like they had said everything that needed to be said.
They didn’t know what else to say.
Luna tried to find a topic, “Aren’t you going to the office today?”
Orion shook his head, “Not today.”
“I’ll cook lunch then,” Luna stood up.
Orion got up, “I’ll help you.”
Luna said, “It’s fine, I can manage by myself.”
“You know, I’m not good at cooking, but I can help you with cutting vegetables.” Orion smiled.
Luna didn’t refuse and silently agreed.
She opened the fridge and looked for ingredients.
Orion came up behind her and hugged her.
Luna’s body tensed.
“Can I hug you?” Orion’s voice was deep and almost pleading.
Luna was a little uncomfortable but tried to overcome it.
She softly hummed, allowing it.
Orion bent his waist, resting his chin on her shoulder, closing his eyes to savor the joy of holding her.
He said, “Luna, thank you for giving me a chance.”
Luna lowered her eyes, “I should be the one thanking you. Without your determination, I wouldn’t have taken this step.”
“Let’s not be polite with each other,” Orion said.